Monday, November 4, 2019

The Fifth Girlfriend

Four girlfriends ago
He was a different kind of man

The four girlfriends ago
Assumed that by now
He’d be dead
But yet he insisted
On not being dead

And while they weren’t cross
About that
They weren’t…

Excited
About it either

Because the fifth girlfriend
The fifth girlfriend was having
The time of her life
With a sensitive
Thoughtful
Tender man
Content with life
And all-consumed with trying
To please the fifth girlfriend
And keep her
Forever

The four girlfriends ago
Should let this go
And not become enraged by it
But they ARE
Of course they ARE
How could they NOT be

He was a five alarm
Four girlfriends ago
Three girlfriends ago
He was radioactive

He got tattoos he couldn’t afford
He chainsmoked
He drank just enough
To be belligerent

His last car accident
Changed his life
But the accident
Was two days after
The fourth girlfriend

He met the fifth girlfriend
In the hospital

She was there with her father
Who passed away--expectedly

He was there for her
And that was the first sign
That the collision
Had knocked something loose
That before had been firm

A solid gave way
To a softening

And she was there for it

That new shoulder
That was just waiting
For someone to cry on it

The third girlfriend
Heard all this secondhand
From the first girlfriend
And all four girlfriends ago
Got inside a group text
And wondered what the hell had happened
And had it been the car accident
And if so
Why couldn’t he have gotten into an accident
When THEY were dating him

Maybe not as serious an accident
Because that would have meant
Them turning into nurses
Which wouldn’t be appealing

But a fender bender
That magically turned him
Into the kind of man
Any woman would want to have?

That would have been ideal

Four girlfriends ago
He was never supposed to change

He was going to be
The man you leave
So you can become
A better you

Now he was the better one
And they were
The four girlfriends
Who didn’t see his potential
Who didn’t stick it out
Who walked away from the slot machine
Two nickels away from a jackpot

That’s not true
But it’s how it feels

It feels as though people wait for you
To give up on them
Just so they can surprise you

Just so they can
Turn it all around

But change begets change
And four girlfriends ago
He couldn’t change

Change comes with the fifth girlfriend
And the eighth job
And the ninth apartment
And the final straw

You never know

You never know
What’s going
To make you

Change

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