While You Were Scared

While you were scared
I was staring at the clock
Watching the hours
And minutes go by
Like opportunities floating in a river

While you scared
I decided to find someone who wasn't so scared
And as soon as I did
You start talking about bravery
About brave you are

All of a sudden

And how I'm just settling down
Because I'm scared

Well fuck yeah, I'm scared
Maybe you were so scared
You never looked around and realized
That we're ALL fucking scared

We're all aging
We're all stagnating
And we're all fucking terrified

And some of us did something about it
And maybe what we did was wrong
Because it was either continued terror
Or trapped comfort

Yes

Some of us were wondering
What comfort
Would be like

While you were scared
I was standing there
Arms out
Hands open
Saying 'Don't be scared'
'I'm here'
'I'm standing right here'

While you were scared
You were making lists of things
That wouldn't make you scared
And those lists were so long
By the time you were done writing them
You didn't even have time
To go back
And remind yourself
What it is
You were looking for

While you were scared
You were unfocused
You were spinning
You were spinning out of control
You were expecting me
To perform miracles of love

Heal you
Help you
Hear you out

And now I'm here
Here, and finally
Not scared

Except for one thing
Except for the only thing
That's left

I'm scared you're going to say you're ready
You're ready for me
You're ready to stop being scared

And I'm going to say...

And I'm going to have to say

It's too late

It's too late to be anything
But scared