Thursday, July 30, 2015

You're Gonna Be the One That Saves Me

Your bathing suit reminds me not to stare
And I appreciate your broken tone
We shake hands like we’re telling a joke
And I silently say your name to myself

I’m two miles down a one-mile well
Deeper than anybody thought I could go
I sent back the bucket with a note that said ‘I’m fine’
And floated on the top like a brand new penny

Then along comes this oasis
In my self-imposed desert
And briskly I’m reminded
That I never learned to swim

You’re not flow-y like the poems say
Or flowery, or sunny
Nothing about you says nature
Or earthy, or natural, or free

But you have to get close to get close
And that reminds me of me

You don’t inspire me to write
You inspire me to not write

Half the rockets in the sky
And you picked mine
To bring back down

I hear 90’s radio
And shut my eyes
Knowing I was stuck in ‘91
And here comes ‘96

I want to get up and dance
But I’m too drunk to move
Clicking my tongue
Tapping my feet
Cool windshield for a pillow
Rolling engine as a bed

You know I’m gonna be a project
But you love me anyway
Not right way, but you see it coming
Like a big wave at a little boat

You’re gonna tile me
And teach me
Root canal me
And reach me

They’re gonna write about us
But we won’t be writing
We’ll be too busy living
Giving ‘em something to write about

I’m going to drown
And dizzy
And burn out
And lose
And lose again
And give you something
To work with

You’re gonna say you’ll never leave
And I’m gonna change your mind
But you’ll stay anyway
Past your friends’ objections
Your parents’ ultimatums
And your own common sense

You get up on the hood with me
And we say…nothing

Frogs jump by but you don’t kiss ‘em
Boys drive by and honk their horn
You put your head next to mine
And whisper promises you’re not sure you can keep

And I peg you for what you are
There and then
My sword on your shoulder
The stone of your lips

You’re gonna be the one that saves me, I say

And you say—We’ll see

You won’t believe me
Until you’ve done it

Until I’m saved
And you’ve done the saving

I’m the thing you thought you’d never do
And you did a good job

I’ve had a lot of people love me
So that’s nothing new
But nothing compares
To being saved my you

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Around the House

They feed me chicken on Fridays
And tell me I’m doing well

You’re doing well, they say
As if they have some insight into my wellness
That I’m not privy to

I wouldn’t be surprised
There isn’t much I am privy to these days

The pills say I’m happy
And so I’m happy
The pills say I’m level
And so I’m level
I’m stable
I’m solid
I eat solid food
I eat, that’s the point
Any food will do
Even the crap they feed me
Like the burnt chicken
And mushy peas

The maids bring me the pills
The chef brings me the food
The butler stands next to me
To make sure I don’t find myself
Attracted to the knives

They wheel me around my house
Like I’m a child in a carriage

This is the room you do this in
This is the room for sitting
This is the room for talking
This is the room where you visit with guests
Although there are never any guests

They think my memory is faulty
When actually, my memory is fine
But my will is being challenged
By my own lack of enthusiasm

The servants—maids, butlers, everyone
Have a hobby they enjoy

They like telling me
How rich I am

You’re lucky, they say
You’re lucky you’re so rich
And can afford to have people
Take care of you

But then they leave me
Believing I’m trapped with whatever’s
Locked behind my eyes

They close the curtains
They turn out the lights
They forget about me

Where there were candles
Now there are photos of candles

Where there were portraits
Now there are hooks and faded paint

Where there was a window
There’s a wall
Where there was a bedroom
There’s a washroom
Where there were flowers
There are empty cages

A phone rings
But no one answers
A clock chimes
But time goes back
Back to halls I used to dance through
Back to tables with friends around them
Back to twelve seconds ago
And back twelve years further than that

Aren’t I lucky that I’m rich, I think?

Only the rich can afford
To live off their memories

Someone comes to get me
And only my body is there
This time they’ve finally convinced me to vacate
This time they’re on their own

The Elephant and Chris

The elephant told herself
She wouldn’t do this again

She sits across from Chris
Looking down into her coffee
Trying to twiddle thumbs
She doesn’t have

Her trunk rests casually on the table
Next to her scone
Chris chews on some bacon

She imagines telling Chris
That this isn’t going to work

They’re just different people
Well, he’s a person anyway
And she’s got aspirations
That he doesn’t share

Chris describes his ideal sandwich
The elephant nods
And thinks about trampling him to death

Across the cafĂ©, there’s a cheetah
Breaking up with a guy named Floyd
And for a brief moment
The cheetah and the elephant share a moment
A sort of—Yeah, same here, sister

Meanwhile, Chris sops up runny egg yolk with his toast
And the elephant wants to gag

What is wrong with you, she wants to ask
If you wanted a sponge, why not just ask for one?
Why take bread—which is already spongy
Harden it
Then try to make it into a sponge?

He was an illogical force of nature in her life
Like a thunderstorm
Or an unripe melon

The elephant clears her throat
And her coffee cup flies off the table
And halfway across the room

Sometimes she doesn’t know the strength
Of her own breath

Chris reaches over to touch her right ear
But she pulls away
And says ‘Don’t’

He grimaces
The man across from the cheetah
Starts to cry

The elephant thinks about getting up to leave
But where would she go?

Besides, the tables are too close together
She’d end up knocking something over
Or stepping on a croissant

Chris asks her if she likes her scone
‘What’s not to like,’ she asks
Trying to keep the wild fury from her voice
‘It’s a scone’

He senses that something is wrong
His nose twitches
Then flops out of his face
And onto the table
Right onto his pancakes

His ears jut out from either side of his head
And the fingers on both of his hands
Began to run together
Like flippers
Then swell like water balloons

His skin turns a mid-day grey
And his clothes fall off in threads
Like snake’s skin

Great, the elephant thinks,
Now there are two of us

The waiter stops by and asks
If they’d like a refill on their coffee
Two nods
The waiter nods
More coffee on the way

The elephant dashes her hopes
This breakfast will go on forever
The cheetah is now alone
The man across from her got up to use the restroom
And never came back

Chris has fallen asleep at the table
His trunk landed in her fruit cup

Great, thought the elephant
Just great

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

This Boring Heaven

You can’t trust a cloud
To tell you the truth

You can believe that it won’t lie to you
But that doesn’t mean it has to tell you everything

I ask to see you
They say you’re here
But you’re not here

‘Not in this exact spot?’

Heaven, the cloud says, is a very large place

Funny, because I always thought of Heaven
As being exclusive
And so, tiny
Miniscule, really
Since it seemed that so few of us
Would actually see it

But it turns out that the Lord is forgiving
And so Heaven is a landscape
More vast than Earth
And so ‘lost’—

A concept we the living
Have given up

--Lost is something that now only exists in Eternity

Someone can be in the same place as us
And nowhere near us

I thought Heaven was for the happy, I say
And the cloud says—

Happy, maybe, but not ecstatic
Certainly not entertained
You’re at peace is all
Isn’t that enough?

But I’m bored

I don’t say that
But it’s how I feel

I’m bored in Heaven

And I thought I was going to see you here

I was buried on a Saturday
In my Sunday best

My hair was done just right
A hint of a smile crept upon my lips
And nothing the undertaker did
Could seem to fix it

People wept on me
They touched me
One even took my photo

And I lay there imagining you
Feeding me apple slices
Walking with me to the market
Throwing down your key

You’re here, the cloud says
And you’re everywhere
And individuality is a luxury
That you’ll grow to forget

I pictured Heaven like a Cab Calloway dance number
White steps
Top hat
A cane
A tap number

I thought I’d be tapping with you

I try and get a sense of my feet again
So I can tap one

Knock it off, the cloud says
Then goes back to hovering
Over a child’s birthday party

I let go of my feet
But not my fingers
I wiggle one
Then another

I feel a light touch
On my thumbnail
And I know it’s you

I don’t know how
But I know it is

The cloud breaks up
And I close my hand
The smile returns
To where my lips used to be

And Heaven grows
A little smaller

A little closer
Together

The Nuns and The Bear

The nuns go softly towards the bear
The bear cocks its head
And looks at them

He doesn’t trust the nuns
He doesn’t understand them

They pitch their tents
And make their fires
They strum guitars
Under sunhats
Braise meat they brought with them
And laugh at old jokes
With new punchlines

These are not your average nuns

The bear licks its paw
When the nuns approach

He lets them get closer to him
Than he has ever let any human get
But he can’t help himself

He has a curiosity about them
What are they doing here?

In the river, they wash their clothes
And their hair

When it rains, they huddle in the tent
The bear can see them
From his spot between the rocks

Their shadows tell stories
Of prayer and silence
But when the rain finishes
They emerge from the tent
As if they’ve rediscovered where they are
Again and again

When they get near the bear
He kicks back his upper lip
To give them a flash of tooth
So they won’t forget themselves
Or him

That doesn’t stop one of them
From getting a foot away
And smiling at him

Why are you smiling, he wonders
But then he drops his upper lip
And his guard as well

The nuns don’t rustle
He doesn’t rustle
There’s an understanding
That this could all change
And change suddenly
With no previous contract breached
Or agreement vacated

The little nun
Who lost her family in the war
Puts out her hand

The bear assembles an opinion of it
And then steps back, and away

He has disappointed her
And himself
But she doesn’t show it on her face
And he doesn’t eat her face
So it’s not the worst way
This all could have ended

When the nuns pack up and leave the next day
The bear watches them hike back through the forest
Until the light leaves the leaves
And the black and white
Mix with the brown and blush
And the rain starts again

Promising nothing will look the same
And everything will be different

Grandfather on the Ice

Grandfather’s on the ice
Waiting for the tide
To pull him out

The tide?
Is that what the tide does?
We’re not sure
We’re not exactly a scientific people

We put our grandparents on the ice floes
And then we walk away

But two months later
We’ve returned
To spend our long weekend
By the ice
Engaging in leisure activities
Such as—Not Freezing to Death
And—Casual Shivering
And what do we find?

Grandfather—Still on the Ice

Still alive and feeble
Withering away
At the ripe age of forty-two

He’s been existing solely on fish he catches with a net
He’s made out of his own hair, which, luckily for him
Is falling out at accelerated rates

‘Grandfather,’ we yell from a safe distance
Scared to approach him
Since it’s likely he’s now feral

‘You were supposed to float out to sea
And die a dignified death
Of exposure and starvation!’

He doesn’t respond to us
He simply melts ice into a cup
He must have smuggled out of the village

We would never have allowed him
To bring a perfectly good cup
Onto the ice floe with him

Why bother?

And now he’s used it
And his hairnet
To keep himself alive

Well, this is an abomination

After a night under our seal pelts
We wake up at dawn
To find him behaving strangely

Then we realize what he’s doing—
Exercising!

He’s exercising!

It’s as if he has no urge to die at all!

We apologize for our excessive use of exclamation points
In this part of our story
But we mean to infer
The extreme level of agitation
Brought about by seeing how spry and able-bodied
Our dead grandfather was

Because, at this juncture, he is essentially dead
We’ve mourned him
We’ve wept
We’ve divided up most of his valuables
And accused our cousin of stealing his prized cup
Causing quite the rift in our little clan
Only to find out that Grandfather had it
This entire time!

Where do we go from here?
--We ask ourselves
What is to be done?

Our mother, who so grieved when she parted with her father,
Suggests harpooning him
And calling it a day

But, we say, you cannot kill him
For he is already dead

We find ourselves
In quite
The conundrum

Grandfather, for his part, seems to be in great spirits

He’s made himself a little ice chaise
On the floe
And a little ice table
And even a little ice dog
That we see him petting occasionally

Well that’s it, we think, he’s lost his mind
--And this makes us very sad

It’s why we put him on the ice floe
When we did

It’s a horrible thing
To lose one’s sense of self

That’s why we send our elderly out into the everlasting water
Before their minds have a chance to deteriorate

We’ve estimated that the mind begins to erode
Around the age of forty-three or forty-four
And so, we’re always sure to send our elders to their deaths
A year or two before that

How do we come to these estimations?

Well, it's not an exact science
In that it's not exactly a science
More like a feeling
A discomfort
The air of an ending
The trailing off of someone's life

Grandfather sits on the ice floe
And we sit on the shore
Two sides of time
Bound by a line
That goes even deeper
Than the cracks in the ice
That separate the safe from the drowned

We need him to die
So we can stop thinking about him dying
Because thinking about him dying
Makes us think about our own deaths
And those are unpleasant thoughts
That make living difficult

It is, we suppose, the unfortunate thing about death
That it has a way of ruining life
If you let it

We take a few steps towards Grandfather
Sitting on his ice chaise
Petting his ice dog
Whittling a shard of frozen water
Into what looks like a totem

As we approach him
He lets out a breath
And we take ours in

There's a lap of water
There's a whale's howl
There's a cut and chop the cold does
When you insist on walking through it

We extend our hand to Grandfather
And he smiles
As if he knows something
We don't

Then--directly underneath us
The ice
Begins to crack

Monday, July 27, 2015

Romance in Peacetime

Away from the falling candles
Away from the lucky glass
Away from the wine-soaked tablecloths
And the bad news
And the blasts

There we sit on empty dance floors
With the music in our minds
Left of center
Left alone
To be uncertain of ourselves

Now the sunset comes too early
And the sunrise, not at all
We believe in first impressions
Second chances
And third strikes

I have on my old tuxedo
And you wear your party dress
Life’s a dance we never learned
Love’s a trip we never took
Happiness is, well, happiness

A bird calls out
A whippoorwill
A nightjar
At least, that’s what I think it is

Ghosts make more noise than you think
Blessed footsteps
Creaking wood

Are we here or are we not?
Who’s to say?
Why make a fuss?

Lift me up
Onto my feet
I want to try out
These new toes

Is that wind around my hair
Or just the hope of it?

I ply my leg
I pull it back
You sit so softly
Like a child at storytime

I dance for you
You clap for me
I stop
You stare
I drop
You crawl

Around us, wars are ending
And when they’re done
Who will we be?

We’ve had no romance in peacetime
We were built on bombs
And soda walls

Carbonated friction
Caffeinated lives
Living to our own devices
Listening to hearts louder
Than the dead

Won’t we be boring
When all this is over?

Won’t we be heavy
And hearty
And sad?

Like everybody else
That never learned to dance

A dream within a dream
A break within a song
A bird without its voice
A romance without candles

Without perfume, passion, or pursuit

You smother me
And smother me
And smooth me out
So nobody will notice

But it’s too late, you see

It’s much too late
To start another war

Thursday, July 23, 2015

We Might Be Heroes: The Moon

Dear Alexander,

In two weeks time
I’ll be amongst the stars
Aiming at spaceships
Firing my electronic pulses at them
Watching their warcrafts
Turn to space dust

I’ll fly up there in a sleek
But sensible outfit
And rescue humanity
From extraterrestrials

I know what you’re thinking
Why are you telling me all this?
We’ve been separated for…

Oh God, two years?

Two years, Jesus

Well—I’m writing to you because…

I’m not coming back

From space, I mean
Or whatever

I’m not coming back to Earth

I thought about it
But, honestly
Earth holds no appeal to me anymore

I’m happy to be saving it
But living on it is…

It’s become more difficult without you, Alexander

Not that I’m devastated or anything
I don’t want you thinking I’m, you know
Suicidal
Although I guess flying into oblivion
And not coming back
Doesn’t exactly demonstrate
A zest for life

I’m just not having fun anymore, you know?

Without you, it’s…

Well, it’s not depression
It’s not hopelessness
Hell, it’s not even ennui
It’s just…

Why?

You know?

Why?

To think that I can save mankind
But I can’t bring you back
It’s as if—

It’s as if my abilities
--My enhanced abilities--
Are just a cruel joke

Soaring over vistas
And oceans
Feeling only my mind wander
Because I’m alone

No matter how high you fly
You’re still alone

Maybe when I’m up by the moon
I’ll try floating on my back
As if I’m in a pool
Drifting around
Going this way and that

And maybe from in front of the moon
I’ll look down on Earth
And see you somewhere

A candle in a dark room

And I’ll say ‘There he is’
And I’ll keep an eye on you
From way up there

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Twice a Shooting Star

Checkered plaid electricity
Zap mosquitoes
Swat and slap

Cardboard crowns
And empty wrappers
Nickels tucked into the rugs

Make the bed shake
Find a cartoon
Lift your dress up
Put your dress down
Put the make-up on yourself

Rev the engine
Close the curtains
Scrape the shower
‘Til it’s clean

Can’t wash yourself in something dirty

Fill the bucket
Dump your purse out
Buy a bag of stale pretzels

Take your dress off
Barefoot carpets
Half-cracked Bibles
Flimsy headboards

Chewed up nails
Wrinkled foreheads
Wrinkled everything
Polished shoes

Practice breathing
Dry land swimming
Lucky guessing
Solitaire

Name your price
Put on lipstick
Put on pantyhose
Put on perfume

Bite your tongue
Bite your lip
Bite your nails
Bite the bullet

Test the mattress
Eat the burger
Wear the crown
Try the mirror
Run the shower
Lick the steam
Pinch your cheeks
Spin in circles
Spin in circles
Spin in circles

Crack the Bible
Find a passage
Ask forgiveness
Bless yourself

Stretch your arms out
Scan the ceiling
Slip your dress off
Say your name

In the window
There’s an engine
Revving, ready
Black and blue
And metal too

Sunlight, headlights
Moonlight, night light

Put your hair up
Put your dress on
Put yourself together fast

There’s a knock
And there’s a phone call
There’s a star
Gone twice already

Make a wish
Can’t hurt to do

One might not count
Be safe
Make two

Clothes on the Line

She better come home
She’s got clothes on the line

Food in the pantry
Food in the fridge

Dog keeps barking
Kids are crying

I’m sittin’ here trying to drink my beer
Clothes on the line
Whippin’ in the wind
Storm could be comin’
And she don’t even care

She’s probably runnin’ around
With no shoes
Hair down
Dancin’ at that spot in town
Where all the soldiers go

Her old beau came back
From Korea yesterday
Lost an eye
And half his mind
Try dancin’ with someone like that

The sleeve on a shirt on the line
Comes up and waves at me
Through the window
From the yard

I wave back
Because why not?

The kids are in their rooms
Freshly spanked for making noise
Put to bed without the supper
That their mother didn’t make

I should take the clothes off the line
But that ain’t my job
My job is my job
Putting in furnaces
Six days a week

The yellow dress she wore
With the red stain near the bottom
Flies up in the air
And tugs at the line

She never could that red stain out
But she wouldn’t trash the dress
Must mean something to her
That I don’t know about

There’s lots of things
She keeps in her pockets
And buttons up tight
So I can’t get to ‘em

Nights in the field
Notes passed in school
Whispers at our wedding
Stains on yellow dresses
That look like blood

A sock flies off the line
Towards a watermelon sky

I should go out there
And take the rest down
But right after I’d do that
I’d head into town
And make a scene at a bar
Have everybody say how mean I am
What a bad man

And how she shoulda married
That one-eyed bastard
And been a caretaker her whole life
Instead of just having to cook a few dinners
Wash a few dishes
Take a few shirts in from outside

A pin comes off the yellow dress
The wind wants to claim it
As its own

That gets me off my ass
And out the back door
But just as I reach the line
The other pin comes off
And the dress goes running after the sock

I reach for it
And catch the end of it
Where the red stain is

I should be stronger than the wind
But the wind begs to differ

It yanks me up and out
And before I can think about it
I let go and watch her favorite dress
Disappear in air and temperature

Serves her right, I tell myself
But does it?

Feels like it might serve me right instead

I go back inside
Crack open another beer
And listen to the wind pick up
A few more things
Before it leaves for good

The front door sits unlocked
Ready for somebody to come inside

I’ll just be here, I think
My breath going bad

I’ll be waiting
Right here

Monday, July 13, 2015

We Might Be Heroes: Letters

(Two men stand onstage.)

BURR:  Dear Steven—

STEVEN:  Dear Burr—

BURR:  I was wondering what you would think about reuniting to help fight the aliens.

STEVEN:  I’m worried you’re going to want to reunite to fight the aliens.

BURR:  We had such a wonderful time together.

STEVEN:  I feel it would be a mistake.

BURR:  With my ability to stretch and contort my body—

STEVEN:  With your weird rubber arms and that thing you do with your neck—

BURR:  And you with your superspeed—

STEVEN:  Plus, I’ve given up running.  I mostly amble now, although sometimes I mosey.

BURR:  We don’t have to hide anymore.  The government wants heroes out in the open.

STEVEN:  I like my privacy.  Sometimes I dress up like a clown for no reason.  Getting older has done odd things to me.

BURR:  And why stop at aliens?  We can take on criminals.

STEVEN:  And who’s to say it would stop at aliens?  They’d probably make us fight criminals too.

BURR:  We can make a real difference in the world.

STEVEN:  The world is beyond saving.  Personally, I’m siding with the aliens.  Let ‘em blow us up.  Things can’t get much worse anyway.

BURR:  You were always so positive.  Always ready to look on the bright side of things.

STEVEN:  I hope you’re still the cynical jerk you were back when we were young.  I feel like I could appreciate you now.

BURR:  Doing yoga has really changed me.  Well, that, and all the money I inherited when my uncle died.  He invented K-Cups, you know.

STEVEN:  God we were stupid back then.  Running around with capes and masks—

BURR:  Remember how good I looked in a cape?  Capes are the shit, man.  They really are.

STEVEN:  Sitting on rooftops, looking for trouble—

BURR:  Out at all hours of the night, lurking in the shadows to strike fear in the hearts of the morally bankrupt—

STEVEN:  That time I got food poisoning and threw up on that bank robber.

BURR:  That time you got food poisoning and threw up that bank robber.

STEVEN:  I don’t want to revisit that, Burr.  Let’s leave well enough alone, all right?

BURR:  I think about it all the time—those days, those nights—the years just out of reach—

STEVEN:  Sure, my life isn’t all that exciting now, aside from the skydiving lessons and amateur boxing league I started in my backyard on Tuesdays—

BURR:  Do you ever lay awake at night and think ‘God we were so much fun?’

STEVEN:  Do you ever lay awake at night and think ‘God, were we idiots?’

BURR:  My wife thinks I’m crazy.

STEVEN:  How’s your wife?  I always liked Sharon.

BURR:  She says my days of being a vigilante are over.

STEVEN:  She used to make that wonderful onion dip.  Does she still make that?

BURR:  She says if I join up to fight the aliens, she’ll leave me.  Do you believe that?

STEVEN:  I never got married after Linda left me.  I do have a parrot that yells obscenities at me from time to time, and that’s about as much of a wife as I can handle.

BURR:  I’m just so bored, Steve.

STEVEN:  I’m so happy, Burr.  I really am.  And I’m miserable.  And I’m happy being miserable.  It’s a weird phenomenon.

BURR:  I wake up in the middle of the night panicking—but I don’t know why.  My wife thinks I’m apprehensive about the aliens, but it’s not that.  It’s the fear of sitting by and watching other people fly by me—capes in the wind, fists out, ready to do something—ready to participate—

STEVEN:  I can sit by a window and say whatever it’s gonna to be, it’s gonna be.  Let the kids go fight, it’s their fight anyway.  Why save a planet I’m only going to be on for a little while longer anyway?  I realize I’m not quite dead, but in the grand scheme of humanity’s history, I’m a blip.  We’re all blips.

BURR:  Sharon sent me to the supermarket to buy water.  Stock up on water, she said.  Why, I felt like saying, so we can survive?  That’s it?  Just survive.  I don’t want to just survive.  I want to…I want to…

STEVEN:  You should stock up on water, Burr.  Water and canned goods.  And probably guns too.  I have a ton of guns—oh a ton of guns, what a phrase—and you can have one or two if you want.  I don’t run from things anymore.  I face ‘em head on and say ‘You wanna tango, boss?’  That’s more my style these days.  But as long as you stay off my property, I got no problem with you.

BURR:  I got a ball off the roof today using my powers.  My son was so embarrassed.  ‘Come on, Dad,’ he said, ‘You’re being weird.’  I’m weird.  I always thought I was cool, but I guess I’m just—

STEVEN:  Weird, isn’t it?  For years we thought we had to be ashamed of who we were, and now, we’re hot tickets.  We’re in demand.

BURR:  I might just do it, Steve.  I might just take off in the middle of the night.  Go to DC.  Sign up.  See what happens.

STEVEN:  I might just go into the bunker I built in my basement and not come out again.  I have jerky and girly mags down there.  What else do I need?

BURR:  If I do, I hope I run into you out there.  Maybe we can fight alongside each other on the battlefield.

STEVEN:  If I do, best of luck to you, Burr.  And tell Sharon I sure do miss that dip.

BURR:  All the Best.

STEVEN:  All the Best.

BURR:  Ps.  You always were my best friend.

STEVEN:  Ps.  You still me twenty bucks.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

We Might Be Heroes: Hope

(NATHAN speaks to his daughter, SKY.)

NATHAN:  Now I want you to tell me the truth.

SKY:  Okay.

NATHAN:  Did you go invisible when you were at your mom’s?

SKY:  Yes.

NATHAN:  Okay.

SKY:  Are you mad?

NATHAN:  Yes, I’m mad.  You’re not supposed to go invisible.  We talked about this, Sky.

SKY:  I can’t help it sometimes.

NATHAN:  When did that start?  You can always help it.

SKY:  It’s just been happening.

NATHAN:  Did something change?

SKY:  No.

NATHAN:  Well, something must have changed, otherwise why would it be happening?

SKY:  Maybe it happens when I’m upset.

NATHAN:  Were you upset at your Mom’s?

SKY:  Yeah.

NATHAN:  Why?

SKY:  Because I didn’t want to be there.

NATHAN:  Why not?

SKY:  Because I was scared you weren’t coming back to get me.

NATHAN:  Because you heard I was going to DC?

SKY:  Yeah.

NATHAN:  Sky, I told you I was coming back.

SKY:  I know.

NATHAN:  Did you think I was lying?

SKY:  I know you wouldn’t want to lie but…

NATHAN:  But what?

SKY:  Maybe you didn’t know you were lying.

NATHAN:  You know, sometimes I gotta have hard conversations with you, right?

SKY:  Yeah.

NATHAN:  Like, sometimes we’re going to have to talk about stuff that you might not want to hear.  Stuff that’ll make you sad or something, and that’s okay, but we still gotta talk, you know, whatever that stuff is.

SKY:  Okay.

NATHAN:  I do have to go to DC.  I went on Thursday to scope things out, but now I gotta go back.

SKY:  Why?

NATHAN:  You know why.  Because you’re not the only one who can go invisible when she wants to.

SKY:  I know.

NATHAN:  And I gotta turn myself in.

SKY:  But you didn’t do anything wrong.

NATHAN:  It’s not about doing something wrong.  It’s about signing up to do something right.

SKY:  Why do you have to sign up?

NATHAN:  What if everybody who could help had a daughter saying that to them—Why do you have to do it?  Then nobody would do it, right?

SKY:  I don’t care though.

NATHAN:  But I want you to care, that’s the thing.  When you grow up, I want you to be somebody who cares a lot, even if it means doing something you don’t want to do.  And right now, I need you to be with your mom and not give her any trouble, okay?

SKY:  She makes me feel weird.

NATHAN:  That’s because she doesn’t understand what you can do.  You gotta have patience with her.  Just because she’s a mom, that doesn’t make her perfect.

SKY:  She’s just jealous of me.

NATHAN:  Yeah, maybe she is.  A lot of people wish they could be invisible these days.

SKY:  She says I should keep it a secret.

NATHAN:  That’s because she doesn’t want other people to hurt you.

SKY:  If I’m special, why would they hurt me?

NATHAN:  To try and get at what you have.

SKY:  Why can’t you just stay here and protect me?

NATHAN:  Because I already gave you everything you need to protect yourself.  I gave you what I have.  Somebody starts something with you—you just blank out on ‘em.  They won’t know where you went.  Then you get yourself somewhere safe and you call Mom or Grandma or somebody, okay?

SKY:  Okay.

NATHAN:  You scared?

SKY:  A little.

NATHAN:  You know who gets scared?

(She shakes her head.)

NATHAN:  Smart people.  That’s why they’re so smart.  Because they don’t try and act all big and bad.  They say ‘I’m scared’ and then they do what they gotta do.  They regroup, they plan, and they come back ready to fight.  That’s how you gotta be.

SKY:  Ready to fight?

NATHAN:  Yup.

SKY:  I thought fighting was bad?

NATHAN:  It is.  But it’s something you gotta do.

SKY:  Sometimes you gotta do bad stuff?

NATHAN:  Yeah, that’s life, kid.  And if you’re lucky you can tell the difference between the good stuff and the bad stuff.

SKY:  What if you’re not lucky?

NATHAN:  Then you gotta hope.

(He hugs her.)

NATHAN:  If nothing else, you can always hope.

(Lights.)

Friday, July 3, 2015

We Might Be Heroes: Swimmers

(MARY ANN and SUSAN are on a plane reading magazines.)

MARY ANN:  You know what I don’t understand—

SUSAN:  Please Mary Ann.

MARY ANN:  If you can fly—

SUSAN:  I’m not just going to flying through the air.  I explained this to you several times.

MARY ANN:  We would have saved a lot of money on plane tickets.

SUSAN:  What do you mean ‘we?’  You’d still be on this plane.

MARY ANN:  I thought maybe you could carry me.

SUSAN:  Just because I can fly, that doesn’t mean I have superhuman strength.

MARY ANN:  Well that was rude.

SUSAN:  I’m sorry.  I hate flying.  You know that.

MARY ANN:  I do, but you know, ever since you told me you can fly, it’s made your fear of flying seem a little odd.

SUSAN:  In planes.  I don’t like flying in planes.

MARY ANN:  But you don’t mind flying on your own?

SUSAN:  No.

MARY ANN:  That’s weird.

SUSAN:  When I’m on my own, I’m in control.  In here, I just feel…I don’t know.

MARY ANN:  Well, if anything happens, you could always just jump out of the nearest exit.

SUSAN:  Please, Mary Ann, don’t even bring it up.

MARY ANN:  Fine, fine.  But you know, if I can be on a plane—

SUSAN:  I know, Mary Ann.

MARY ANN:  Statistically speaking, we’re fine.

(A beat.)

SUSAN:  We might see Larry in DC.

MARY ANN:  What?

SUSAN:  When we get there.

MARY ANN:  Why would we see Larry?

SUSAN:  He lives there.

MARY ANN:  So do a lot of people.

SUSAN:  Don’t make this a big deal.

MARY ANN:  Why were you even talking to him?

SUSAN:  I had to tell him Michelle is pregnant.

MARY ANN:  Why can’t Michelle tell him?

SUSAN:  Mary Ann, he’s the father of my children.

MARY ANN:  And your youngest child is twenty-eight.  You don’t need to talk to him anymore.

SUSAN:  I was just curious about how he was doing.

MARY ANN:  How is he doing?

SUSAN:  He’s fine.

MARY ANN:  Still with Gloria?

SUSAN:  Well…

MARY ANN:  Jesus.

SUSAN:  Mary Ann—

MARY ANN:  Did you think I’d be thrilled about this?

SUSAN:  It’s nothing.  He said maybe we could get coffee while I was in town.

MARY ANN:  While you’re signing up to go fight aliens?

SUSAN:  You know, this probably hasn’t occurred to you, but in the event I do end up fighting aliens, I’d like to have all my affairs in order.

MARY ANN:  I didn’t realize Larry was an affair.

SUSAN:  I never liked how we ended things.

MARY ANN:  So you want to start ‘em up again so you can end ‘em right?

SUSAN:  That’s not it.

MARY ANN:  You know, I came on this trip to support you—

SUSAN:  Exactly.  So be supportive.

MARY ANN:  I never agreed to babysit you while you rekindle things with Larry.

SUSAN:  Nothing is getting rekindled.  I just want to say what I have to say before I go to my appointment at the agency.

MARY ANN:  And what is it you have to say?

SUSAN:  That…he hurt me.  Very much.

MARY ANN:  You think he doesn’t know that?

SUSAN:  I’m sure he does, but I’ve never said it to him.

MARY ANN:  You think he cares?

SUSAN:  People change, Susan.

MARY ANN:  You know, you never tell me anything.

SUSAN:  What are you talking about?  You’re the only person I told about the—you know, my…ability.

MARY ANN:  Yeah, after decades of keeping it a secret.

SUSAN:  I didn’t tell anybody.

MARY ANN:  Did you tell Larry?

SUSAN:  Of course I told Larry, he was my husband.

MARY ANN:  He was your rotten husband.

SUSAN:  He wasn’t always rotten.

MARY ANN:  What did he say?

SUSAN:  When?

MARY ANN:  When you told him you could fly?

SUSAN:  He said I should keep my feet on the ground where they belong.  Then he had another beer.

MARY ANN:  What a prize.

SUSAN:  He was right.

MARY ANN:  What?

SUSAN:  They would have experimented on me for science or whatever.  The only reason I’m turning myself in now is because they actually want me to.

MARY ANN:  And because you’re not with him.

SUSAN:  No.

MARY ANN:  Does he know you’re turning yourself in?

SUSAN:  Yes.

MARY ANN:  And what does he have to say about it now?

SUSAN:  He doesn’t think I should do it.

MARY ANN:  What a surprise.

SUSAN:  Because he still cares about me.

MARY ANN:  Because he wants to keep you down, that’s why.

SUSAN:  You were always jealous because I…

(A beat.)

MARY ANN:  Well, go ahead.  Finish.  Because you had a husband and I didn’t.

SUSAN:  I didn’t…You had Joe.

MARY ANN:  Yes, I did.  And he was wonderful.

SUSAN:  The good ones die too young.

MARY ANN:  Is Joe the reason you’re scared to fly?

SUSAN:  I think the better question is how are you not scared to fly?  Your husband—

MARY ANN:  Some women’s husbands die from drowning, Susan, and they still swim.  Well, some of them do.  I guess when it comes down to it, I’m a swimmer.

SUSAN:  You’ve always been tougher than me.

MARY ANN:  Yeah, but you’re a superhero, I’m not.

SUSAN:  That’s up for debate.

MARY ANN:  You don’t need Larry’s permission to do this, you know.

SUSAN:  But it couldn’t hurt.

MARY ANN:  Susan—

SUSAN:  It’s why he left me.  He says that’s not the reason, but…It’s what I think.  It’s what I believe.

MARY ANN:  If that’s true, then I hope the aliens kill him first.

SUSAN:  Mary Ann!

MARY ANN:  You never know, Susan, the aliens might offer to only kill half the people on earth, and if they do, I think we should just give them the assholes and not put up too much of a fight.

SUSAN:  You know, Joe saw me flying once.

MARY ANN:  He did?

SUSAN:  By accident.  I only went out flying at night.  To practice, just because…Well, I don’t know why.  It was so late; I thought nobody would be up, but there he was, in your backyard.

MARY ANN:  He was always a night owl.  But he never told me he saw you.

SUSAN:  I made him promise not to.  But he said he’d only keep it a secret if I swore I’d never stop.  You should see yourself, he said, A person flying—you make it look like we should all be able to do it.  He made me feel…He was a very kind man.

MARY ANN:  Maybe he’s flying now too.  Maybe that’s the reward we get if we live a good life.  Maybe when it’s all over, we get to fly.

(She puts her hand over SUSAN’s hand.  Lights.)