In a Second

It really only took a second

To realize

I was not going

In the right direction

And yet I felt compelled

Because I had, you know

Gone in this direction for so long

To just, sort of, keep going

In that direction

I thought about--in that second

My upbringing

Catholicism

Specifically the Devil

Satan, and I, uh, thought about temptation

And I wondered

Is this the Great Temptation?

And by that I mean

Is the biggest temptation

One personal to you

Because mine has always been

Investing too much

For too long

Even when I should stop

And go invest in something else

Or maybe it's everyone's temptation

Who knows?

All I knew was it was a heavy heart moment

I'd heard that expression before

'A heavy heart'

But I didn't realize that it could be literal

That it could be a physical experience

The heavy-ing of one's own heart

Like a break-up, you know?

Except I was breaking up with a journey

With a path I'd chosen for myself

The same way you'd choose a home

Or a job

Or someone to love

I walked away

I looked at something

And it was everything I wanted

And then a second later

It was something else

And people say--

You have trouble committing

And they're right

I do

But my question is--

How much can you commit to anything

When in a single second

Everything can change