There are bay windows
And bookshelves
And perfectly pruned rose bushes
And hedges
And vines that creep
And a lawn that glistens
All belonging to a house
Where Elizabeth lives
But there are no outlets
Elizabeth looks around and around
This gorgeous house
That her husband purchased
With money from his family trust
And even though there’s an indoor pool
And several acre-long patios
And a golf course that spells out
The family name—
There are no outlets
Elizabeth tells herself
That one cannot have everything
That one cannot have everything
And that when one is given a house
With a ballroom and a bowling alley
One must make do without dribs and drabs
Like outlets and….Well, outlets
After all, outlets
Are the only thing
Missing
Elizabeth tells her husband about the outlets
As they sit across from each other
At the long, long, long table
In the dining hall
Everything about the house
Reminds Elizabeth of ‘Clue’
Which might also explain
Why she keeps imagining herself
As a murder victim
As a murder victim
Found bludgeoned
In one of the many long, long, long hallways
She tells her husband about the outlets
And he tells her she’s mistaken
‘You’re mistaken,’ he says,
‘There are plenty of oulets.
Outlets everywhere!
You can’t walk five feet
Without finding an outlet’
And to prove his point
He gets up from the long, long table
Walks over to a wall
And—Yes, there it is—there’s an outlet
And Elizabeth feels foolish
And apologizes
And apologizes
And goes back to eating
Her duck a l’Orange
But later on, when she goes looking
For that outlet in the dining hall
She can’t find it
It’s gone
And though she walks the length
Of nearly the entire house
She can’t find any other outlets either
Five feet, ten feet, fifteen feet—
Nothing
She gets in bed with her husband
And sleeps facing away from him
When before, she’d always stare into his sleeping face
And beg forgiveness
For reasons she couldn’t explain
Forgive me, she’d think
But then she’d smile
And wind herself down
Like a clockwork toy
Years passed, and Elizabeth found herself
Making due without outlets
She gave up making toast
Or curling her hair
Or vacuuming
Whenever she’d tell her husband
That she needed to plug something in
That she needed to plug something in
He’d magically find an outlet
And look at her
As though she were the loveliest woman in the world
And it made her feel like the reflection
In a funhouse mirror
‘When you want toast,’ he said
‘Just have someone make it for you
You shouldn’t be vacuuming
Or ironing
Or doing anything
But enjoying the house’
‘Outlets,’ he said, ‘What do you need outlets for?’
But Elizabeth found herself
Touching the walls at night
Running her fingers over the spaces
Where she thought outlets should be
Making little circles and squares
Then plugging imaginary cords
Into them
Eventually, she’d return to bed
But not before looking at herself
In one of the many, many, many mirrors
That ran up and down the hallways
Her hair was a little grayer now
Her skin not quite as smooth
And her hands shook a bit
Well, maybe more than a bit
She lived in a house
With bay windows
And bookshelves
And perfectly pruned rose bushes
And hedges
And vines that seemed to grow longer and longer
With each passing day
They covered the windows
And the crept through the ceiling
Up through the floor
And around the bed
Where her husband slept
Elizabeth would run her fingers over them sometimes
Pricking herself on a thorn
She’d see a spot of blood appear
And think—
I suppose I am still here
After all
And as she thought this
The vines started pushing through the walls
So they could swallow everything up
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