Thursday, March 5, 2009

What You Need

-- The strangest things come out of me at 3:30am.  I should mention that this is no way autobiographical, and as a way of telling--Usually I write angry or sad pieces when I'm content, and when I'm not content, I don't write at all.  Easy, right?  --

"What You Need"

What you need is a task
A task to do and finish
Safely, everyday
That will never change
To rearrange yourself into pieces
That never cease to be
Easy to put together

What you need is a room
With a door that locks
That has no key
Where you can't hear me
Asking you to come out
Even when I need
When I need something from you
I should get it myself
I should learn which shelf
To keep my things on
So I never have to bother you
When you don't want me to

What you need is a stranger
To put your smiles on
While I get looks
Saying we'll talk about this

Later

When we get home
When we're alone
And you can tell me
About all I'm doing wrong
Not being strong enough
To be your armband
Or give you a hand
With your social demands

I'm failing at saving you
Flailing in a pool
While you sail past me
On a nice blow-up float
Gloating to your friends
That you're quote

"The normal one"

What you need is a poet
No, no, that's not it
You need a prince
You need a glimpse into the future
To know we'll be okay
Before you devote more time
To today or the next
Texting me asking if we can have sex
Tonight, because you feel like it
Not asking if I feel like it
Chomping at the bit to be the couples
You think you see in your friends
Assuming what they have will never end
But us, we might
We just might
But we didn't end tonight
And that's something
Right?

What you need is insurance
You need policies
You need rules
Elaborate intricacies
Regarding you and me
And what we'll be
Twenty years from now
And what happens if we don't get there
And don't make our deadlines
And whine about how long it's taking
Before we're making out again
Kissing and missing each other
Before we've even left the building
The breaking begins
Cracking our skin as we caress each other
Blubbering about letting go
Even though
We're the only ones who can
And we do
And we don't try to defy our hands
As our fingers open
And release

What you need is perfection
And when rejection seems
Like a possibility
You're willing to beat it
To the finishing line
And simply do away with me

Less I reject you
You can't protect yourself
So you hit the ejection seat
And out I go
Bellowing at you
That I wasn't going to leave
But you don't believe me
And neither do I

What you need is beyond me
It's more than my capabilities
And it's revealed
Like a curtain
Pulling back
Backtracking to where we started
To see what we need to see

That what we needed
Was a distraction
From what we had
Bad or good
We should have seen it coming
Dumbing down and turning down
Our alarms and stimulating our ability
To be charmed by falsities
Resting in nice eyes
And kind hands
And understanding vocal approaches

What you need
And what I need
Is separate
But equal
And we don't equate
So why wait on the next twenty?

Let's divy it up now
And maybe break even
Take what we need
And then go
Fingers releasing
Let go
Lease is up
Let's go
Movers are here
Let's go

Don't cry
Just go
Go

Go

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