Nobody Ever Comes Looking

I took everything out of my bags

Once I got to the hotel

The person at the desk said

She’d never seen anybody

With so much luggage

I guess people just kind of

Float in and out

With enough to get them by

For a night

Same situation here

Just--

Just, you know

Different priorities

Different things

On my mind

I took out all the stuff

Every item

And I placed it

Around the motel room

And then I got

The best night’s sleep

I’ve had in awhile

Filled the place up

So you couldn’t see a wall

The floor

The door

The windows

I felt--

Safe

Like I did at my old apartment

Before they made me leave

Before they--

I used to have people over

Sometimes

Because--

Like, people who needed--

Who needed to feel safe

Like I did

Like I do

And--

Most of the time

Pretty much all of the time

They’d say to me--

Oh, I feel trapped

And I wouldn’t understand

I didn’t

Not until--

Later on I did, but--

Only because it’s like--

Whatever makes you feel good

Makes you feel good

Because it clicks in with you

And it won’t do that

With anyone else

That’s what I believe

Like, that’s my actual

For real

In real life

Belief system now

That what makes one person

All comfortable

And good

Makes somebody else’s skin crawl

Just how it is

I stole everything I had

In that apartment

And I didn’t feel one bit bad about it

Because that stuff clicked with me

The same way the feeling of keeping it

Clicked with me

And nobody ever missed any of it

Nobody ever came looking

Nobody ever called my name in the night

To see if I was behind a wall

Of my own making

I’d pick something up

That I knew

Was so valuable

This--this would happen
I would--

And--

The person--

Whoever it was near me--

Would just--

Sometimes--

They’d look at me and go--

Take it

You want it?
Take it

And then I’d put it down

I’d put it down and say--

No thank you

Because…

That’s not how it was meant to be

I wasn’t meant

To take things

I was meant to…

To…

To steal them

That’s a--

That’s how you know

You--

That’s how you deserve

The safety

Because you don’t look

For somebody

To give it to you

You take it from them

And you run

You run

Before they even

Know

It’s gone