Monday, June 23, 2014

Leaving Rhode Island: Fresno


                (NATALIE and JIM on a plane.)

NATALIE:  I want you to be happy about this.

JIM:  I’m sure you do.

NATALIE:  I want you to know that I’m not happy that you’re not happy.

JIM:  But you are happy that we’re going back?

NATALIE:  Yes, but it’s a lesser sort of happiness.

JIM:  Well, I’m sorry that I can’t make your happiness whole, Natalie.

NATALIE:  You could if you’d just stop pouting.

JIM:  When men lose a bet, they pout.  That’s how men are.  I’m a man.  And I’m not even an exceptional man.  I am the everyman.  I pout.  And I hate flying.

NATALIE:  You’re the one who wanted to move to Fresno.  If we hadn’t moved so far away, we wouldn’t need to be on a plane right now.

JIM:  We drove the first time.

NATALIE:  And I will never do that again.  Five solid days of throwing up.

JIM:  If you had taken the pills—

NATALIE:  I threw up the pills, Jim.  I threw up everything I ate for a solid week.  It’s a miracle I survived.

JIM:  At least you lost some weight.

                (A beat.)

NATALIE:  I’m going to bring that up one day when we’re fighting and you say you never say anything stupid.  Believe me, I am going to use that like a nuclear weapon.

JIM:  I’m sure you are.

NATALIE:  I’m going to decimate whatever argument you’re making with that little fat comment.

JIM:  I didn’t say you were fat.

NATALIE:  The minute you utter the word ‘weight’ in a conversation with a woman, you are driving a school bus onto a frozen pond, Jim.  You take your life in your hands.  Be aware of that.

JIM:  I can’t believe my entire life is being turned upside down right now because I lost a bet.

NATALIE:  I didn’t want to make the bet.

JIM:  Here we go.

NATALIE:  You wanted to make the bet, I didn’t.

JIM:  I—

NATALIE:  I said, ‘Okay, they’re kicking us out of Rhode Island.  We can deal with this.  Let’s just move over the line.  To Attleboro or something.’  You’re the one who said, ‘No, screw it.  Let’s move across the country.  To hell with them.’  I said, ‘But Jim, what if they let us come back?’  You said, ‘They’ll never let us come back, Natalie.’  I said, ‘But what if they do?’  And you said, ‘I’ll bet you they never do.’  I said, ‘Jim, don’t make a bet like that with me.’  And you said, ‘I’ll bet you that they never us back, and if they do—‘

JIM and NATALIE:  ‘--We’ll go back.’

NATALIE:  You know I make people honor their bets, Jim.  That’s just how I am.

JIM:  Maybe we should have moved to Vegas instead of Fresno.

NATALIE:  Please.  Like your friend Terry?  The drug lord?

JIM:  He’s not a drug lord. 

NATALIE:  So you’re saying he doesn’t sell drugs?

JIM:  Oh, he sells drugs.  But he’s not a drug lord.  ‘Drug lord’ sounds like he lives on a plantation in Guadalajara.

NATALIE:  Now there’s someone who deserved to be exiled.  A criminal.  That wife of his too.

JIM:  They lost their child, Natalie.

NATALIE:  We lost a child too, Jim.

JIM:  It’s not—

                (A beat.)

NATALIE:  What?

JIM:  Nothing.

NATALIE:  The same?  It’s not the same?

JIM:  Not…It’s just different.

                (A moment.)

NATALIE :  So.  Are you going to pout when we get home too?

JIM:  Home to Rhode Island, you mean?

NATALIE:  Yes.

JIM:  I don’t think Rhode Island’s ever going to be home.

NATALIE:  Rhode Island’s always been home.

JIM:  When we were living in Fresno, yes.  Because home is the last place you ever lived when you hate where you’re living now.  So for you, yes, home was Rhode Island.  Home to me was Fresno.  Because I liked Fresno.  Rhode Island wasn’t home even when I was living in Rhode Island, and it’s sure as hell not going to be home now.

NATALIE:  Can’t you just make the best of this?

JIM:  The best of what?  The rest of my life?  My only prayer is that they’ll exile us again.

NATALIE:  Don’t even joke about that.

JIM:  I’m sorry that you—

                (A moment.)

NATALIE:  Now that one I’m going to have to make you finish, because I’m not exactly sure where you were going with it.

JIM:  You were a cheerleader in high school.  You had tons of friends.  You were President of the Student Body in college.  You got a great job as a realtor.  You made tons of money.  You made double what I made.

NATALIE:  That’s because you wanted to write children’s books.

JIM:  You wanted me to finish, right?

NATALIE:  Sorry.

                (A beat.)

                Sorry.

JIM:  You have fond memories.  I don’t.

NATALIE  So you’re saying I peaked early?

JIM:  I’m saying Rhode Island worked for you, it didn’t work for me.

NATALIE:  Jim, you weren’t doing any better professionally in Fresno.

JIM:  But I liked it there, okay?  I just liked it there.

NATALIE:  Well, I didn’t.

JIM:  That’s because…

                (A beat.)

NATALIE:  Yes.  That’s why.

                (A beat.)

I was so sick.  And you kept saying it wasn’t the Exile disease, but I know it was.

JIM:  That isn’t why—

NATALIE:  And I knew she wasn’t going to make it.  It took us so long just to…and then just like that…

                (A moment.)

JIM:  We could go somewhere else.  We don’t have to go back.

NATALIE:  I miss my mom.  I miss my sisters.  Kate’s in college now.  Can you believe it?  College.  I feel like I’m missing out.

JIM:  You Skype her all the time.

NATALIE:  Skype is not life, Jim.  Sometimes you just want to hug somebody.  To actually feel their presence.  Do you know when the last time I hugged someone—

                (A moment.)

JIM:  Yeah, I know.

NATALIE:  You don’t have to come back with me.

JIM:  How would that work?

NATALIE:  I don’t know.  I guess in one way it wouldn’t work and in another way—

JIM:  We’re not there yet.

NATALIE:  Aren’t we?

JIM:  We’re not.  I don’t hate you.

NATALIE:  Things don’t end just because people hate each other.  Sometimes they end because it’s time for them to end.

JIM:  But I love you.

NATALIE:  I love you too.  But you hate Rhode Island.

JIM:  Do you hate Fresno?

NATALIE:  Everybody hates Fresno, Jim.  I think you’re the only one who doesn’t.  They should elect you Mayor.

                (A beat.)

JIM:  I’d miss you.

                (She thinks about this.  She puts her hand in his.)

NATALIE:  We’ll make it work.

JIM:  Will we?

NATALIE:  Well…I’ll make it work.  You just hang on for the ride.

JIM:  (Smiles.)  Okay.

                (He kisses her.)

NATALIE:  And try not to freak out when we hit turbulence.

JIM:  (Laughs, then--)  I forgot about turbulence.

NATALIE:  Just hold my hand, Jim.  Just keep holding my hand.

                (He does.  Lights.)

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