Because She's My Sister

I need you to give my sister a role

But she can’t know

That she’s getting the role

Because she’s my sister

Eventually everyone will know

There’s no hiding something like that

I’m just hoping that she gets at least two movies in

Before anyone knows

But even one movie

Even one movie should be good

And even when people find out

I need you

If she asks

To tell her

That she did not get--

--And she is going to ask, by the way--

I need you to tell her

That she didn’t get

This one particular role

Because she’s my sister

She really--

She doesn’t want

To get roles that way

She’s not using my last name

She doesn’t want to

I told her that it’s a common

Last name

And that even if she uses it

Nobody will know that it means--

But everyone will know

Would know

I knew that

I said different, but I knew--

People know these things

They check

And she must sort of know that too

Because she’s using a different name

And I am so

Proud of her

For that

I really am

And I wish I could be one of those

Cold-blooded jerks

Who’s cool with watching

Their loved ones fail

But I’m not

I’m really not

I can’t know

That I can help her

Succeed

And, you know,

Not

Help her

I can’t do that

But I also can’t let her know

That I’m helping her

Because if she got anything

Anything

Because she’s my sister

She would never be content

With any accomplishment

That came after that

And that would be a quick road

To resentment

To resenting me

And as it is

I’m already pretty sure

That she resents me anyway

Because I’m me

I’m famous

And she wants to be famous

And if she ever is famous

Then all’s forgiven

But if she doesn’t wind up

Being famous

And maybe even more famous than me

Than we are never going to have

That kind of close brother-sister relationship

That I so desperately need us to have

Because, you know, maybe I need this

Just as much

As she does

Maybe more

Because I’m lonely

I’m so fucking lonely

And how great would it be

To have someone else

Who’s already supposed to close to me

Understand this other part of me

That nobody else

Seems to understand?

So please

Give her the role

In the movie

But don’t tell her

It’s because of me

Because of who she is

And whose sister she is

Tell her she got it

Because she’s awesome

Because she is

You know

She is awesome

So awesome

And I wish I believed

That was enough

I really wish

That was enough