They took her in Nigeria
And I called the embassy
I called the embassy
And I asked them
What we should do
And they gave me another number
Another number to call
A referral
And I screamed
I screamed at them
Right into the phone
Not a word
Just a sound
A scream
I screamed
Walter had to—
Do you remember, Walter?
Do you remember
Do you remember
Having to pry the phone
Out of my hands
Because I just—
I wouldn’t stop screaming
It was impossible
It was impossible to stop
Myself
Myself
I don’t even remember doing it
This was in April
It was April
And it was two weeks
After Liza’s birthday
And it was two weeks
After Liza’s birthday
And she disappeared
She disappeared
And I thought—
My god, she’s been kidnapped
They’ve kidnapped her
We were there
Against my wishes
Because Walter was doing work
With AirTech
Which wanted a presence
In Nigeria
I remember saying—
‘What does that mean, Walter?
A presence?
What does that mean?’
What does that mean?’
And what it meant was that
There was all this intrigue
Going in and out of the country
And Walter was just there
To work on their computers
And get systems up and running
That kind of thing
That kind of thing
And so we move there
Again, without my approval
I mean, I went, but I wasn’t happy
Walter wasn’t really happy about it either
But this is the world now, you know
This is how things are
Ironically, Liza was very happy to go
She thought it was an adventure
And we promised to get her a puppy
If she went and didn’t put up a fuss
And that was all she needed to here
Children are easy like that
Get them a dog or a lizard
Or anything they can give a name to
And they’re just as happy as can be
So it was April
And we’d been there, uh
Only a month or two
And Liza was playing outside
In this gated yard
--I told Walter I wasn’t living anywhere in Nigeria
Without a gated yard
So we found a place with a gated yard
And she was out there
With Reg, her dog
She named her dog Reg
Because that was Liza
That’s just how she was
And I went inside to grab my coffee
That was it
Just to grab my coffee
Probably took me thirty seconds
A minute—tops
And I come back outside
And she’s gone
Liza’s gone
And there’s Reg
Sitting there
Like—What happened?
And immediately I think—
She’s been kidnapped
Someone kidnapped my daughter
I call Walter
He comes rushing home from work
I call the embassy
I’m screaming
Walter keeps calling people
Trying to figure out what we can do
Neither of us speak anything but English
I’m crying
I think I passed out for awhile
Just went upstairs and passed out
Because my daughter was dead
I knew that
I mean, I instinctively knew that
And so I just said—
Well, I’ll go upstairs and die too
Bury me when you get a chance, Walter
I mean, it sounds funny
Talking about it now
But that’s really how I felt
I’m done
I’m just done
My daughter’s dead
And it’s my husband’s fault
And my fault
Because I listened to my husband
When I should have put my foot down
When I should have put my foot down
And said ‘We are not going to Nigeria’
We are not leaving a perfectly good home
In a perfectly nice country
To go live amongst the barbarians
And I’m—
I’m sorry, but that’s how I felt
At that moment
I know they’re not—
That just because someone’s not an American
That doesn’t automatically make them, uh—
But at that moment
I was very upset, obviously
And I’m still upset
I’m still very upset
Thinking about it
But an hour later
Liza came home
She swore she told me
That she was going over to the Taylor’s
Our neighbors
The father works with Walter
Well, not with
Walter
But he works at AirTech
Liza said she yelled to me
That she was going
And she didn’t take Reg with her
Because the Taylor’s little girl, Marie
Is allergic to dog hair
And she was being considerate
Considerate to Marie Taylor
But she gives her own mother
A heart attack
I wanted to throttle her
But, of course, I just hugged her
And I kept saying—
‘I thought I lost you
I thought you’d been kidnapped’
And she couldn’t figure out
Why I would think that
She was just so innocent
There were just so many things, she—
You know, that she didn’t know
That she—
To her, there was no difference
Between Nigeria and America
No difference at all
We lived both places
We had houses in both places
And both places were fine
It’s not like I worried
When she played out in the yard
In America
And that yard didn’t even have
A gate around it
But—
I told her ‘From now on, you stay inside the house’
And she didn’t like that very much
But Walter backed me up
And that was that
And we never had any other trouble
The entire time we were there
Which only ended up being a few more months
Thank god
It just made me nervous
Being there
It just wasn’t
Somewhere
I wanted
To be
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