What the Narrator Has to Say

I just don’t know

What you expect me

To do

Keep narrating?

You want me to just--

Oh god, this is--

You cannot call him

You can’t

You--

I won’t do it

I won’t say--

‘And then she called him’

I won’t

Because, you know what?

And I’d like to speak

About me right now

And how I’m feeling?

Is that--

Can I do that?

Can I just--

Because I am tired

Of being the passive force

That memorializes your life

As it happens

Regardless of how cyclical

And unhealthy

It becomes

Yes, I said it

You know, I could have gone omnipotent

That was a choice

That was a choice I could have made

A choice for me

But honestly?

I didn’t want to know

Where any of this

Was going

I was terrified

To be one of those--

But things wouldn’t work out that way

--Narrators

Because the truth is

You don’t really need to be omnipotent

To know how this

Is going to turn out

But having at least a little hope

That maybe it’ll be okay

Was enough to let me keep myself

In a lesser position

And I’m not saying

I did that for you

Or that you need to be

Responsible

For that

But the fact is

You were a part of that decision

And now you just want me to say--

And then she called him

And I’m not going to say that

I understand

What this relationship is

But it is toxic

It is not okay

And I can’t just sit back

And go along with--

She walks away from the Narrator

No

NO

Do not do that

That is--

She isn’t listening

This is--

Making me

Acknowledge you

Not acknowledging me

Is perhaps

The cruelest thing

You have ever done

And frankly

At this point

You can just do first-person

Because I am out

I am not going to be the third person

In my own life

Whatever that life

Or story may be

Good luck to you

And--

She was already gone

Well

Well, well, well

I guess that’s all there is

To say