What Becomes a Problem

It just didn’t seem like a problem

Until, uh—

Well, I guess

Until it was

And I wasn’t sure

When to do something about it

So I just sort of—um—

I just sort of

Let it go

And, uh, talked to, you know

People that I thought
Might be able to help
And everybody kept being like—

Well, I’m not sure

What to do about that

And eventually

You just run out of people

To even ask

So, it’s like—

Okay

I guess nothing’s getting done

So nothing got done

And things, uh

Got worse

And I’m waiting

Because, um

So—I don’t know how to explain this

But, sometimes,

When something is going wrong

You just—

You just sort of assume

That it’s going to stay at, like,

The same level of wrong

And that, you can, you know

Learn to live with that

But then it gets worse

And you adjust to that reality

And then it gets worse

And so on and so on

And, uh—

I don’t know

I felt really helpless

To tell you the truth

I felt…

Like, I knew—too

Like, I knew

How this was all

Going to play out

With people afterwards

Being like—

Why didn’t you do this?

Why didn’t you do that?

And I’m like—

I did do that stuff

I did

And it didn’t matter

All the stuff you think

You can do

In a given situation

To make things better?

Yeah, that stuff

Doesn’t help

It’s just a list of things

We can say to people

When we think

They didn’t do enough

But has anybody ever actually

Done those things

And gotten anywhere?

Have they?

Because I didn’t get anywhere

When I tried it

I called all the numbers
I sent out all the emails

I did everything

You’re supposed to do

And everyone just kept saying

Wait until it becomes a problem

And I’m saying—

It’s a problem right now

But they want it

To be a bigger problem

They need it to be—

Because they’re, like,

Dealing with problems

That are even bigger

You know?

So they need it

To get to a size

They can’t ignore

Before they actually

Do anything about it

Which is—

We just keep pushing the problem around

And ignoring it

And not even, not even

You know, not even

Calling it what it is

And then it blows up

That’s what happened

It blew up

And that’s when I was like—

Okay, well now

It’s more than a problem

Now it’s something

Way worse