All the Way Out of Lonely

I think my biggest accomplishment

I mean, if you asked me

Was--

That, um

For two or three years

After Keith left me

I was, uh, pretty lonely

Um

So for me to be sitting here

Tonight, you know

I’ve been here before

In this, this, this place of--

Feeling lonely

And, uh, but I know--

I know

There’s a way out of it

And, I--

I didn’t really know that

For a long time

Like know it know it

And I’m not sure

When I learned it

I guess it just…

Occurred to me

One day

That I wasn’t lonely anymore

Not--you know--not all the time

Like I was

And that might not sound like much

But, uh, for me, it was

It was a weight

Just the--

Just the realization

That I wasn’t

In that pit anymore, you know?

And knowing

That somehow

I mean, maybe it’s time--

It is

It is time

But it’s also me, you know?

I got myself out of it

If only because

I didn’t stop

I didn’t---try to stay in place

I kept moving

I kept talking

Jesus, I talked myself--

I never stopped talking

I talked until everything

I was worried about saying was said

And then there wasn’t anything else to say

So I had to do something

I must have done something

Because now I’m out of it

Not permanently

Not saying I could never go back, but…

At least I would know

At least I would know

I was there

Sometimes that’s all it is

Just knowing

You’ve been somewhere

And you’re not going to stay there

That’s…

That’s--sometimes that’s enough

I got myself out of lonely

All the way out of lonely

And, you know,

It’s not a career

It’s not a marriage

It’s not having kids

But it’s still something

Some people

Spend their whole lives

Trying to do

And, uh, you know

Not doing

No because of them

But just because--

It’s hard, you know

It’s really hard

And if I can get myself out of that

It’s like--

It’s like

What can’t I do

You know?

It’s like--

There isn’t anything

I can’t do