Friends From Home

He sits in his dorm
And won't go out

He's following Danica on Twitter
And she's out getting drunk
With her new friends

Those are the big words

'New friends'

All his old friends
Now have new friends

While he sits home
Monitoring his old friends
Through the power
Of social networking

Jay's out in Chicago
Seeing a play
That his new boyfriend was in

Scottie's having dinner
With his girlfriend's parents
At some restaurant
In New York

Kelly is in Austria
On a movie set
Assisting the assistant director

He remembers when Jay
Was dating Kelly
Who hated being dragged to movies

He remembers Scottie
On a day trip to New York
Hyperventilating and swearing
He was never going back

He remembers Danica
GIving them all a lecture
When they got drunk after homecoming
About how immature they looked

That was all a year ago
Even a little bit less

All his friends from home
Were success stories
And here he is
Sitting in a dorm room

Catching up on tv shows he never meant to watch
And posting blogs about the shows
Never once writing the one sentence
That was true above all

'I miss my friends'

Posting this would illicit phone calls
From all but Kelly
Who would simply post on his status
And tell him to go out
And have fun
And she'd see him at Christmas

So instead he writes about Californication
And how underrated it is

He plays music
Softly, but enough to make him feel
Like there's a presence in the room
Other than himself
And the cologne cloud left
By his roommate

'Hey, why don't you come out with me tonight?'

Because he didn't want to create new history
What a daunting task
To have to start from scratch
To have to meet someone
And know you'd spend weeks
Just catching them up
Assuming they gave you the chance

Instead he waits for his friends to get home
And one by one, they do

Danica is--trashed but satisfied. Love my Girlz!

It didn't take long
For a group of strange alcoholics
To become Danica's girls

It makes you feel devalued as a friend
To see yourself become replaced so easily

It makes you wonder if maybe you were just kept around
Because there was no other choice
Because when you go to school with people
Sometimes friendships are formed
Out of sheer geography

Jay is--sooooo proud of his boyfriend! <3 You Paolo!

Five months ago
Jay would still take your head off
If you even suggested
He might like boys

Apparently he was waiting
Until he was in the safety shield
Known as a big city
To let loose

No wonder he had no plans on coming home
Not even for the holidays

Kelly is--having dinner with Hugh Jackman. Jealous? I know you are.

She really was a bitch

Had he just never noticed that?

Maybe it had seemed like something else
Maybe before it had seemed like confidence
A funny kind of confidence
That you could laugh off

But sitting objectively on a computer screen
It just seemed bitchy

Downright bitchy

Scottie is--thinking of throwing himself off a bridge

. . . . .

'Hey Scott, what's up?'
'Oh hey man, how are you?'
'Good. I saw your status.'
'Just getting in, huh?'
'Yeah, something like that. You okay?'
'Man, I had dinner with my girlfriend's parents and...'
'Yeah?'
'Shit, I fucked up, man.'
'You want to talk about it?'
'Nah, it'd just be me whining.'
'I don't mind.'
'Yeah?'
'Yeah, go ahead. I got nothing but time.'

So he sits and listens to his friend
Talk about how he screwed up an important dinner
And got into a fight with his girlfriend
And made out with another girl
Who lived in the same building as him

And he's glad he stayed home
Glad he got another chance
To help a friend from home